I Can't See!

Have you ever walked into a pitch black room and didn't know where the light switch was? Sort of goes like this: You fumble around, hugging the walls, fingers poking at the height you think that silly switch might be. Right inside the door... nope, not there. How about the wall on the other side of the door... not there either. Hmm, maybe it's on the other side of the room? You cautiously shuffle your feet to make sure your big toe doesn't get the brunt of any furniture resting comfortably in your path. You finally reach the other wall and start over, fingertips lightly feeling around, swooshing against the flat surface... nothing! How do you feel now? Lost, secretly freaked, ready to turn around and almost run out into the safety of a light-flooded room?

Well, that's kind of how I feel right now. We're on the verge of turning over the paperwork that we've gathered over the last several months. I feel lost. I've never been here before, nothing to fall back on, only other peoples' experiences. It's scary, I don't really know what to expect or even when to expect it. Hmm.

Some would say this is adventure. Some would say it will be worth it in the end. Some would say this is just the beginning and that there is always that "unknown" in life with children. I have no doubt. In the meantime, it's unnerving and I don't like not knowing where the light switch is!